Paige in New York

My Paige is off to New York to go to school. She is attending an acting/arts conservatory and is having the time of her life. I am so happy for her, and I miss her so much! She arrived in NY on Sept. 11, which really did seem to be a fitting and symbolic day.

I think of how a group of terrorist attempted to destroy the city, and yet 10 years later a young lady can still go there to follow a dream, a dream that only NY could offer. It shows how strong America stands, and how no one can take away a dream, a place or our spirit.

A friend commented on the picture with her arms out. He said she looks like she is going to grab the world. It's true I believe she is grabbing the world, grabbing NY and grabbing and holding onto a dream. I pray for my Paige. I pray she finds what she is looking for, and that all her hopes and dreams become reality. If anyone can do it, I know she can! I love and Miss my Miss Paige, but I wouldn't change her going to NY for the world, its her dream and we all deserve to follow our dreams. How wonderful it is to be young and so excited about life!

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Finally Feeling Better

I am upright and almost standing tall. I am so happy to be feeling better, and grateful for all the well wishes, prayers, positive energy and light that was sent my way. I couldn't have done it without it all. I ended up in the emergency room a couple of nights ago. It was the worst pain I have ever felt in my entire life, and yes that includes giving birth to 4 children without the aid of pain meds. It ended up being a severe colitis attack. I am so hoping to never go through that again. I have been having them off an on quite a bit lately, but this was the worst. I have to follow up with a GI Doc and see what is causing them. I don't even want to think about that right now. I just want to get back on track with the house, kids and all. I have to say I was so humbled by my friend Sally. She surprised me at my door with Piergo casserole and meatballs. I must add that it was enough to feed an army too. It was wonderful and actually the first thing I was able to eat too. I loved it, and love her for being such a good friend. I am blessed to have such wonderful friends who took the time out to pray for me, think of me and even cook for me. Thank you xoxox

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Hernia Repair

Since I still don't feel that great I decided to just list stats about my hernia surgery a couple days ago and not write a whole blog post:

1. Ouch
2. Big plus sign incision through and across my belly button
3. Ouch
4. Tummy and Back Pain.. Ouch
5. Pain Pills... Are you sure they aren't placebos? They don't help!!!
6. Coughing... oh no .. please no more coughing.
7. Ouch, Ouch, Ouch, Ouch to infinity and beyond

When I can post more than Ouch, I will return :)! Hopefully that will be soon!

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My Oldest Baby Girl Graduates High School

I can't believe how fast time flies by. It seems like yesterday I was walking my little girl Paige into Kindergarten. I am so happy to see her grow into a beautiful young lady, and heartbroken that time passed by so quickly. I love my girl and I pray God enriches her life with love, peace, health and happiness. I love you so much Paige!

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Update on Mom

The good news is mom is feeling much better, and looking much better too! She is still complaining a bit, but overall I think she is doing great.

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Long Week

It has been one long week. I feel exhausted, and not too motivated to do much of anything. Mom hasn't been feeling well, and we had to call an ambulance to take her to the ER. She ended up having pleurisy. They sent her home, but she is having a lot of pain, and just not doing that great. Today she finally ate a little after several days of barely eating anything. I am hoping she will start feeling better soon.

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IUN Science Fair

The results are in ! Molly took a bronze at the IUN science fair. WTG Molly !!!

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Science Fair

After taking first place in the school science fair this year, my Miss Molly participated in the Corporate Science Fair tonight. She placed second, and I am so proud of her. She worked so hard, and completed the project all on her own. She separated DNA from strawberries, and then tested to see if you can destroy DNA with bleach. It was based on the forensic science behind destroying the DNA in blood. The next stop for her is the Indiana University Northwest science fair. She competed there last year too, after her first place win at school. Rock on my science whiz, I am so proud of you!!!

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Twinkle Twinkle We Won

I am so excited !!! Abigail won a local contest at Strack and Vantil's grocery store with her Twinkle Twinkle video. We won the new Flip HD. I can hardly wait until it arrives. Look out youtube, here we come :) !!

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The CAT

Well the test results are in and it's cats and dogs that Abigail is allergic to. Poor kid will never be able to have a dog or a cat. I think I figured out why she started having such a bad reaction this winter. See my mom has a cat, and in the winter months the cat stays inside the house, plus our vacuum broke and I wasn't able to vacuum like I usually do every day. Now that the weather is breaking, the cat is going out more, and we got a new vac :). Since then Abby is doing better, plus I am finding that plain old Benadryl is working better than the prescription allergy medicine.

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Allergies

Little Miss Abigail has been having a terrible time with allergies. Poor kid, we can't figure out what it is that is causing so much itching and terrible red patches all over her arms and legs. Once I have her off allergy medicine for a week, we are having a blood test performed to see what is triggering her reactions. I know she is not going to be happy about having her blood drawn, but I really hope we can figure out what is happening. She looks so pitiful with puffy red lips, red watery eyes and spots all over her. They gave me an epi pen, just in case she gets into what ever it is and has a severe reaction. I am hoping that we never have to face that scenario.

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It's me again !

Well it's me again, this time with a new do ! Hope all is well with everyone. It's pretty much the same ole grind here, homework, house cleaning, facebook :) and all the good stuff.

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Drifting

I am not sure how much the human psyche can handle. I am mentally and physically exhausted. The worst part is, I don't see it getting any better. I feel like running away, or curling up and hiding in a closet somewhere. I long to go home. I want to sit in a room alone where it is quiet and think, or not think, just do nothing at all, just listen to the peace inside it. The truth of the matter is, that is not possible. I have no home, or at least no home of my own.

It is hard sometimes, and I realize I should be thankful for a warm bed, food and shelter. I think I wouldn't feel so bad if there were more peace that surrounded me. It seems those I interact with do not realize that words can hurt, and their pain can linger for quite sometime. I'm sure everyone will think me selfish for complaining, and maybe I am, I am ashamed, but sometimes I get lost in the want, the want to feel like somebody, the want to be wanted by someone.

I know God has a plan for me. Maybe I am being tested on faithfulness. Maybe God is saving something really special for me, and wants me to be able to appreciate it. I know that when the time is right, and someday all is right around me I will know, appreciate it, and be thankful for it. I am thankful now for all that I have. Life, children, health is a gift that I do realize I am in possession of. I guess sometimes we all drift in the waters of self pity, in which I have taken part in this evening. Tomorrow I wish and will wake up in the ocean of hope, determination and love. For now I am just going to drift awhile.

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ER visits abound

Hopefully tonight will be peaceful and no trips to the emergency room. Yesterday I had to take Daniel. He was fine at home, then suddenly grabbed his ear and began screaming. This went on for almost an hour when I finally decided to take him in. I wasn't sure if it was an earache, bug bite or if he had stuck something into it. The poor little guy was sobbing uncontrollably and wouldn't let go of his ear. Once we got to the ER he continued to scream and cry for almost 2 hours. Of course just before they took us back, he stopped and said it was all better, it didn't hurt anymore. I then had to explain why I had this little boy in the ER, as he sang Thomas the Train songs through the emergency room ;). Thank goodness the Doc didn't think I was over reacting or even crazy. He said that the tube in his ear could have been blocked and then spontaneously cleared. That would explain the sudden pain and then relief. His ear was red inside and he does have an ear infection. Since the incident he has been back to his singing, running, car racing and train driving self. I'm glad he isn't in anymore pain.

The night before last we had to take Paige to the ER. Her and her boyfriend were goofing around and she hit her arm on Abby's play stove. Nothing was broke and just bruised a little. They put her in a sling and splint for her wrist, which she twisted when she hit the play set.

I am hoping the rest of the week will be nice and quiet with no emergent episodes.

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Daniel's 3rd Birthday

Okay, so I am a bit late in posting about Daniel's birthday. Yes it was Oct. 22nd, but I have been a busy with school and everything else going. Rest assured a good time was had by all, and Daniel was thrilled with his Thomas the Train cake. He now says he is a " Big Boy". Wow they grow up so fast, I have no idea where the time goes.

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I'm still here

I'm still here :). I didn't realize it has been so long since I posted something to my blog. It seems the days are flying by in a whirlwind of task, chores, homework and more. There is always something to do, and never an end to it all. I finished my second class about a month ago at WGU, and getting ready to test for my third course next week. Now to start and finish 4 papers for the last class I have scheduled this semester. I was really hoping to squeeze in one more course before it is all over. Only time will tell if I will be able to do that.

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Abigail loved Lowes

Abigail loved going to Lowes. She built her puppy, and couldn't believe that she got to use a "real hammer, not a pretend one". In a couple weeks we get to build a fire engine, she can hardly wait!

Free kids building program at Lowes for Sept. 2010

The program is national!

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One Year

Well, its been one year now that I have been living with my mom and sister. While I am very thankful to have a roof over my head, food and a place to sleep, I am feeling a bit sadden and a bit depressed lately. I was so hoping we would have our own place by now, but I guess its not in the cards so to speak. I really don't see any way we will be moving out anytime soon. Hubby is still working on commission and personally my feelings about commission aren't pleasurable. I won't chat about it here, because it has been a great source of discussion at home, and I am tired of "talking" aka arguing about it.

I had thought at 41 years old I would be settled, have a home and car by now. Maybe I am going through mid-life crisis, because all I can think of is that time is flying by and I haven't reached my goal of independence. How crazy is it to be my age and still feel like bum, mooching off my family. Once the little ones are in school I will be in a better position to work outside the home. Right now daycare would cost more than what I would make working. Writing has helped some with money, but trying to get out 10 articles a week has proved to be a daunting task. Time... it seems I have no time to write. Late evening when I have free time, I am too tired to make a sentence sound even readable. My brain lags, my thoughts aren't clear and I end up not putting down one word. Hopefully I can get back into the swing of things and get something finished.

Well I guess enough griping today. Putting my chin up again, taking a deep breath and charging forward. Someday... someday things just have to work out. I do know one thing, I won't quit trying, no matter how many times I keep stumbling and falling down, I am getting up. Granted as I am getting older, it takes me a little longer to jump to me feet :), but none the less, I will stand.

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Happy 4th Birthday Abigail

Abigail turned 4 years old on Aug. 12th. Oh my where does the time go? They grow up so fast, it seems like only yesterday I held her as a baby in my arms.

She requested peirogies for her b-day, her fav food. It happens to be Daniel's fav too. I was amazed that Abby ate 6 and Daniel ate 8. As you can see in the pics they enjoyed the meal :). She is also a Tinker Bell fan, so this year the little fairy sat upon the b-day cake.

While she started the day at the hospital for an EKG and an Echo, the end of her special was exciting for her . Play dough, barbies and fairies were the theme for the rest of the night. She loved all of her presents and "swims" her pet fish from Paige, was a hit. Watching her fish, putting on Tinker Bell make up from Molly made for a great evening of fun.

BTW- Her test all came back normal! :)

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School Supply Shopping

What an exhausting day! Why is it when you go shopping for school supplies there is always that one item that every store is out of?

Nothing like braving 90's degree weather in a hot truck and a grumpy 3-year old. I'm just happy its all over with, well except for the elusive steno pad. Guess we will just wait until the Dollar General gets more in stock.

At least I have a new topic for my Examiner.com writing. School supplies, where to find them cheap this week :). Pretty cool to write about what you do everyday.

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